Happy New Year

Boy, we've been really busy. It's been a while since I've posted. A lot has happened. We sadly had a miscarriage last week. We found out the week before during our first ultrasound that there was no embryo in the gestational sac. I wanted to wait a week and do another ultrasound before we did anything else. The following ultrasound showed the same thing and we miscarried last wed. It was painful both physically and emtionally, especially since Bill was gone. Thank god for my mom for taking care of me and thank god for my sister for taking coming over and playing with Liam while I layed on the couch in misery! It was awful. I know I've heard it a hundred times "it just wasnt meant to be" or whatever but it still doesnt take away the fact that I lost a baby and it hurts. I understand that god has a plan (oh beleive me I know this) but Im still allowing myself to be sad. I trust that 2011 is going to be a good year. If the good lord wants Bill and I to raise another child then I welcome that with open arms. If the good lord has another plan for us then we are already blessed beyond measure.
Bill has been extremely busy. He has flown more hours in the last month that he ever has since starting with his company. He was gone for Thanksgiving, Christmas and the New year. I hope that this year will be different but Im not getting my hopes up. All i can do is pray.
We are also in the process of remodeling our bathroom so I will get some pics up when that is fianlly finished. :) Poor Bill, he never gets a break. That's about it for now. Oh yeah, I turn 36 tomorrow. Wow. That sounds kind of old seeing it written out like that. But my plan is to age gracefully! Just like my mom has. Ancient chinese secret: nothing and everything! :) Here are some pics that remind me daily of how lucky I am. I love this little guy more that my heart can hold. My dream is for him to realize one day jsut how much he means to me.



He's got food in his mouth. But what is it,, who only knows. :)

He's waving to his Grammy in this pic.

New Years Eve at Pier Park. This was the Kid celebration where they had 7,000 beach balls drop. If you only knew what we went thru to make SURE that my baby got a beach ball. Poor uncle B!!!

Waiting for the balls to drop with Tita Jen.

I've always hated these little annoying rides at the mall. But look who loves them!

Drawing on his easel from Santa.

Such a little Picasso. Ok, maybe not quite yet.